gurl in her process

written 1/23/17 I arrived in Hawaii with my sister and our friend today.  As the plane took off and left the rainy coast of California, it came to my awareness that we were leaving Turtle Island, the mainland, North America…I was creating a whole vast distance of ocean between myself and the land I had lived on for so long…to go and create my life on this island as home. This island I had never been on before, but had been calling me since a certain age I couldn’t recall. I had had this creeping, strange and compelling fear in the back of my mind since I decided to go to Hawaii. This fear of dying. Of the plane crashing and us never arriving, or maybe even surviving and living to tell this epic tale. I became aware of my fear of dying on the flight and I realized this fear was TRULY the fear of the transformation. It was, in a sense, the jetlag of my conscious self struggling to keep up with the rapidly changing reality, and the fact that I was changing. It can manifest it...

This is a universe fundamentally built on love. That’s why it takes so much effort to hate, to hurt others or yourself, to cause war, because it is not natural to us, whatsoever. We are made to believe, because of a mass agenda to keep humanity from awakening consciousness, that we are inherently violent and that we cannot live in a way that is peaceful, harmonious, easy, gentle, and naturally joyous. This is so far from the truth. Peace and harmony are our origins. This is, perhaps, a radical statement. But only because the brainwashing is so effective. We are made to believe that we are inherently violent and incapable of peace because those who are in “control” do not want us to create peace! If we believed it were possible and that we were inherently capable of harmony, we would create it effortlessly. It is our birthright to live a rich, soul-wealthy life. If there is harmony, and we all grow our food, and produce our own items as needed, what is the use of money? If we share ...

When you have a dream, everything in the universe conspires to make it a reality. This, I believe, is truly law. There are no excuses for not following your deepest dreams. Even if you can’t see the whole road right now (which you won’t, because that’s the whole point of the journey and what makes it actually fun) you will find that roads open before your very eyes the moment you are ready to walk on them. Yesterday I thought of my Grandma. She passed when I was 15. For a while recently, every time I thought of her, I cried involuntarily. Yet I realize she is with me. I cry because I feel her love for me so strongly. She is always with me, and her love for me has only grown with her passing from this world to the spirit. She guides me, and she helps me. She brings people into my life who are supportive, loving and accepting of me. I thought of her yesterday, and then I talked to her, and I knew she would bring us the next ride. It was going to be energetically different, somehow, in...

Traveling lesson number 1 : There is no point of arrival. Even when you get to where you are going, you stand there and say, “now where to?” There is no point when you say, “I’ve made it.” You just continue to go on. There’s no place that you stop and say, “okay. I’m good. I’m done.” It doesn’t exist. When we get to where we think we’re going, we realize that’s only the first part of a journey towards somewhere else. When taken all together, we realize that it’s all a succession of events that are really going towards nowhere in particular. This is freedom! This means that we don’t really have to do anything, go anywhere, be anything. We just are. And we are just going. When you travel, you can see this so much more clearly, at least I can, because the journey takes on a faster form. When you live in a house, and work somewhere in a town you live, and live there for several years, it all looks a lot slower, but in reality the process is the same. Eventually you die. But even t...